All I Want

Here's number 12 of the NYR. Because last week's duet was so well received we decided to do another one. This is another song that Steven wrote. It's beautiful! I hope you like!

Elusive Love

I made a mistake on the last post, it wasn't number 11 it was actually number 10. This one is number 11. :) I have to thank my wonderful brother for sharing a song that he has written. I know, I know, I said I would use only songs that I have written, but this one is just so good. I couldn't resist.

I hope you enjoy it as much as I do!

ELUSIVE LOVE

Dreams never last the way they should

No life escapes the pain

It's just something that we all go through

I've been lost in a saddened state

Of an irreplaceable heart break

Don't look back on the things that I've done

I've just got to say goodbye elusive love

Time passes by in shades of gray

Without your smile everyday

Baby they just seem so blase

I've been lost in a saddened state

Of an irreplaceable heart break

Don't look back on the things that I've done

I've just got to goodbye elusive love

Cold and stained are the feelings that I've retrained

There no good for you there no good for me

I'm swept into a tide of cold and foolish and selfish pride

As I'm drawn into an island of solitude

I've been lost in a saddened state

Of an irreplaceable heart break

Don't look back on the things that I've done

I've just got to say goodbye elusive love

Lot in Love

Here's Number 11 of the NYR.

This song I wrote the summer before Cameron and I got married. I felt that I'd had bad luck in relationships and I wanted to write something about it. This is one of my favorite songs because of the lyrics.

I'm so glad that my luck in love turned around and that I married such an amazing man. I'm so blessed to have him as my wonderful husband. He's been my rock throughout our marriage and I wouldn't be as happy as I am today if I didn't have him.

P.S. Tune in next week for a duet with my brother. :)

LOT IN LOVE

I fell in love with a boy who was untouchable

And always just out of reach

His skin was luminescent I feared it might

Shatter with just a brush on the cheek

This is my lot in love

The depth of mine and his lack thereof

But I've got to be okay

With the lonely alone me today

If he were to ask me to "jump" I'd say

"Where, when, how far and how high?"

He'd say "I need to you to love me without my love in return."

I would softly reply

This is my lot in love

The depth of mine and your lack thereof

But I'll try to be okay

With the lonely alone me today

I can see he can't be all that I need

But unfortunately that doesn't change a thing

No

With one glance of his my heart winds up

It grows tense just like a top

He pulls the string and my heart starts spinning 'round

It twirls and twists as it lights up

This is my lot in love

The depth of mine and his lack thereof

But I have to be okay

With the lonely alone me today

Everything I Wanted

Sorry I missed last week. I was sick and was waiting to get my voice back. Because I did miss I will be posting two videos this week to make up for it.

This first one is another one that I wrote when I was living in Arizona. I was in a relationship with a nice guy, but I found that things just weren't working the way I had hoped. Long story short I'm married to an amazing man and I got a great song out of it.

I really like the lyrics to this song and I hope you do too.

EVERYTHING I WANTED

When I'm with you I'm breathing without air

I'm gazing at you without the stare

Feel like a ship without a harbor

Is this too much too fast?

When I talk to you I'm frozen without ice

I take a double take without looking twice

Feel like a door without a handle

Could you get a handle on me?

'Cuz you are everything I wanted

You are all that I could see

You are everything I needed

So what's wrong with me?

With your arms around me I'm singing without sound

I'm falling backward without hitting the ground

Feel like a storm without the thunder

I'm floating on top but sinking under

'Cuz you are everything I wanted

You are all that I could see

You are everything I needed

So what's wrong with me?

A sunny day without the sunshine

A clear night with no stars

A letter without writing

An "us" that isn't "ours"

I'm tangled in confusion

I'm dancing with my dreams

Sometimes the thing you wanted

Isn't what it seems

As I walk away my heart beats without a care

My back is burning from the warmth of your stare

My opportunities are knocking

Goodbye my love

'Cuz you were everything I wanted

You were all that I could see

You were everything I needed

And that's enough for me

Not a Music Video but Another Hobby of Mine

I'm going to post a video tonight or tomorrow. I've been sick all week and have been waiting to get my voice back.

In the meantime I thought I would post about another hobby of mine. I enrolled in a photography class this semester and have been learning so much about photography. I got a new camera for Christmas and I've been having so much fun using it (Thank you Cameron!).

Our latest assignment was portrait photography, which is my favorite. I love capturing people in the moment and portraying them as they are in every day life. I took some pictures of my Aunt Eileen and I'm pretty happy with how they turned out.

Her latest funny quote was:

Eileen: "I have a headache!"

Mom: "How come?"

Eileen: "Because it's fattening" (she was pointing at the hamburgers we were having for dinner.)